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And finally, at 26, I had a relapse that would mark the absolute lowest point in my life. I never used drugs to get high–I used them to get low, to try and get beneath the feelings for which I had no coping mechanism.

There's an addiction to losing, to feeling that low. They said that gambling addicts are really chasing the loss, not the win. I remember hearing someone explain gambling addiction once. Each relapse was increasingly like a game of Russian roulette my ability to function decreased, as did my skill at concealing my addiction.Īnother story to read: I Had No Idea My Husband Was a Rapist With each relapse, I felt like I was a jumping off a cliff, and that cliff got higher and higher each time. But that overwhelming fear (and shame over the damage I had already done) pushed me back into relapsing several times over the following five years. In the 12-step meetings, we all sorted through the wreckage of our past and–let's be real–our present, too. Fear rose to the surface and overrode every feeling and sensation: I was afraid of using again, afraid of how I could cope as a sober person-of falling back into the black hole of depression, of what people thought of me now that they knew. But as horrendous as the physical detox was (I couldn't sleep for 21 days) the mental, emotional, and spiritual crisis I faced was so much worse. It had been so difficult to get through the first 72 hours of detox, which is a seriously huge barrier for many opiate addicts who are trying to get clean. After treatment, I started attending 12-step meetings.Īt first I felt relieved. I ended things with my fiancé, sparing him the long road that lay before me, knowing I had so very much to figure out. I entered a treatment program, went through medical detox, and then a 28-day inpatient program.

They were supportive, but had trouble comprehending how I even got there. Status: Closed, Addicts Only Online meeting link for all Green Bay meetings.Another story to read: How Meth Addiction Nearly Took My Lifeīut at age 23, my fiancé caught me, and the jig was up. Status: Open ​ Dopeless Hope Fiends at 7:30 pm (In Person and Online) Wauwatosa, WI 53213 ​ Sunday Solution at 7:00 pm Primary Purpose Group at 12:00 pm (In Person and Online)ġ220 Dewey Ave. Marinette, WI 49858 Status: Open ​ The Junkyard at 7:00 pm Algoma, WI 54201 Status: Open ​ Big Book Workshop at 7:00 pm Bridges to Recovery 3123 Shore Dr. Pauls Evangelical Lutheran Church 406 4th St. Status: Open ​ Lighthouse Meeting at 7:00 pm Password: Greenbayha ​ Friday ​ Yukwatsistay HA at 6:00 pm Primary Purpose Group at 6:00 pm Bridges to Recovery 3123 Shore Dr. ​ Spiritual Gangsters at 8:00 pm (In Person and Online) ​ God Shots at 8:00 pm (In Person and Online) ​ Tr udging Junkies at 7:00 pm (In Person and Online) Status: Open Online meeting link for all Green Bay meetings. ​ Get To Steppin' at 8:00 pm (In Person and Online)

Status: Open​ ​ Spiritual Injections at 7:30 pm For a list of HA WI online meetings please click here. Many meetings have simply chosen that organization as their meeting host platform. Heroin Anonymous does not endorse Zoom, nor are we affiliated with the company. Others are still running virtually through the Zoom app. (Updated 2/2022) As of 2022 many of our groups are now meeting in person again.